ate too much....

yes... the photo is taken under the light hahaha... but still

I had the biggest meal today since I started working out again.

It's been 28days since I started.

So far, I've been eating good breakfast, which helps me burn more calories through out the day, eat carb based lunch with some protein. My last meal usually is around 4 - 5 pm. It depends on the day but I usually end up eating veggies and chicken breast.

Take Whey Protein twice a day during morning time and one after workout.

and I started to take Casein before I goto bed.

I guess it's good that I started taking some casein since I don't wake up hungry and tired.

28days. Lost 21 lbs so far.

Body fat was 20% and now it's at 15%

anyhow, back to what I wanted to say.

few of my brothers and I went to "All you can eat Korean BBQ" place for lunch...

I want to say we had about 20+ lbs of meat total. but I'm sure we didn't

couldn't move at all afterwards... not a good feeling but interestingly enough, I digested all the food pretty fast. Maybe it's my metabolism's start working again.

I started to realize that working out regular is helping me to get focused more on everything I do now. It's not just my body changing but I started to more clearly and sharper. I am not lazy anymore. I want to be active, do more things than I would normally do.

I am preparing myself for my future. Whatever that may be, I want to be ready for things...

But, I still am under this fear of getting back to my old self... Fat... and ugly...

really hard... sometimes I feel that I am starting to get paranoid about everything.

I can't eat anything after dark and afraid of all the fattening food...